August 2012
24 posts
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Oy mate
I love Aussies maybe I’ll briefly live there in the future.
Maybe I should (once again) make a list of places to travel, things to do, and goals to achieve.
I really should make one big list and just stick to that..
July 2012
28 posts
Accidental suicide
I fuckin saw a pic of a fucking mantis while scrolling thru a science-related Tumblr.
I really want to die right now in order to escape from that mind-IMPAILING image.
I think I should legitimately seek help for this paranoia. I can’t live like this, knowing that fucking thing is fucking out there.
One of my hobbies is hiking but idk if I can go near the mountains ever again; the color green...
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wells fargo
fuck that shit
Gotta switch banks soon
July 26, 2012
Work, Dermatology appointment, MMA.
I’ve been skipping MMA because I was tired from working.
But now I feel kinda stupid for skipping it, since MMA actually boosts my energy.
I feel confident about MMA too. For example, I tapped out a 250lb strongman today via guillotine choke. Oh the feeling you get when you dominate someone you shouldn’t be able to beat :)
adventure
SO
I’ve been watching some adventure shows
AND
They make me feel like I’m living a worthless, pathetic, boring-ass life. (I do)
FURTHERMORE
They fueled my desire to go on adventures again.
THEREFORE
I will make and go on self-made adventures, with or without my friends.
It will be difficult to gather people to come with me to these “adventures” since I’ve cut...
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11hours
Work, tv, ??lt;/p>
10hrs of work. Going to and from work alone is ~45min.
I want some spare time for self-enhancement
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“We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values……....”
– George Carlin
한국영화
너무 오랫동안 안본듯
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I gotta stop going out 'til 5am
I got work tomorrow today
I got shit to do during the day
Trust
Trusting a person is a complicated thing…
People’s trustworthiness depends on their mood.
I hear that “people can’t be trusted”
But I also hear that “you must find a person you can trust”
Fucking contradictories man
I had this belligerent feeling for this rude-ass fucker 4hrs ago…
I talk to him again 4hrs later…
He’s the friendliest dude I’ve talked to in a month.
The fuck man
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Tilting Heads
I have decided last night to cut ties with most of the people that I have associated with.
From the most mundane guys to the truly delightful gals.
From Richmond and NOVA to California and Arizona.
I have many things which I had planned to use during social gatherings. Well, so much for them. Guess ill save em for special occasions.
Hmm
Its easy to decide who to cut ties with but
I guess...
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123am
Can’t sleep
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I haven’t been to church in 3wks and I feel that not going there is good for me.
I haven’t been believing anyway and the little part of me which wanted to reconvert has gone.
Not going to church saves me time. Plus I won’t see all those annoying-ass kids
Religion is not for me.
I used to believe and worship and shit but I became happy after I ceased to praise.
Not sure if...
you are far too cute or whatever he said: Miss... →
princessj3ss:
Remember when my tumblr used to be Miss Shim? My favorite math teacher used to call me that. Now, I have k-5th graders calling me Miss Shim, fighting over who gets to sit on my lap and who gets to show me his/her drawing first. It’s ridiculous, but I love it so much. It sincerely hurts to think…
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I know exactly how you feel. - Father of two daughters.
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“Loneliness does not come from having no people around, but from being unable to...”
– Carl Jung
phase
i expected this phase but not this soon.
I’ve been fuckin ‘hateful’ for the past two days and really don’t ‘enjoy’ anything.
no motivation and repelled from society.
I compose myself well and talk just like any other day, but my internal thoughts n feelings are definitely different.
objectively speakin, this is just another phase which i’ll overcome...
스마일 ㅅㅂ
[[MORE]]I need to smile more
I think i do almost everything else right
but I just need to fuckin smile
fucking smile
fuck-ing-smi-le
After I got my latest haircut, which makes me look incredibly criminal, I realized that only way to not repel people is to smile WHILE doing everything I’m already doing.
Like… damn I look evil
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Quiet Time
Maybe I need to take a break at least once a day.
Get away from the real world. Close my eyes and just spend time wondering around my figments.
I randomly came across this thought just now when i was closing my eyes listening to Yiruma while learning French.
It was that “wow” moment.
I don’t know… maybe I’ll try this out for awhile…
I used meditate...
Self destruction was enjoyable.
Now back to my mundane life in rva.
Im not going anywhere far until I go skydiving
Im just crazy… making last second plans, going to maryland and shit, and never sleeping…
Spending money as if I owned the world…
Well, this was my final self-given break. 4th of july rest. Let me stay true to my words and fucking be productive now.
Staring...
123
I’m too spontaneous of my own good
I seriously gotta stay focused on improving myself instead of “having fun”
It’s not like meeting people and shit will have a long-term effect on my life
From now on, I WILL deny any invitations that interfere with MMA.
Hangout until 5pm on weekdays and whenever on weekends.
Except I prolly will go nova few more times
And SKYDIVING.
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