I love Aussies maybe I’ll briefly live there in the future. Maybe I should (once again) make a list of places to travel, things to do, and goals to achieve. I really should make one big list and just stick to that..
I fuckin saw a pic of a fucking mantis while scrolling thru a science-related Tumblr. I really want to die right now in order to escape from that mind-IMPAILING image. I think I should legitimately seek help for this paranoia. I can’t live like this, knowing that fucking thing is fucking out there. One of my hobbies is hiking but idk if I can go near the mountains ever again; the color green...
fuck that shit Gotta switch banks soon
July 26, 2012
Work, Dermatology appointment, MMA. I’ve been skipping MMA because I was tired from working. But now I feel kinda stupid for skipping it, since MMA actually boosts my energy. I feel confident about MMA too. For example, I tapped out a 250lb strongman today via guillotine choke. Oh the feeling you get when you dominate someone you shouldn’t be able to beat :)
SO I’ve been watching some adventure shows AND They make me feel like I’m living a worthless, pathetic, boring-ass life. (I do) FURTHERMORE They fueled my desire to go on adventures again. THEREFORE I will make and go on self-made adventures, with or without my friends. It will be difficult to gather people to come with me to these “adventures” since I’ve cut...
Work, tv, ??lt;/p> 10hrs of work. Going to and from work alone is ~45min. I want some spare time for self-enhancement
We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values……....– George Carlin
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I gotta stop going out 'til 5am
I got work tomorrow today I got shit to do during the day
Trusting a person is a complicated thing… People’s trustworthiness depends on their mood. I hear that “people can’t be trusted” But I also hear that “you must find a person you can trust” Fucking contradictories man I had this belligerent feeling for this rude-ass fucker 4hrs ago… I talk to him again 4hrs later… He’s the friendliest dude I’ve talked to in a month. The fuck man ...
I have decided last night to cut ties with most of the people that I have associated with. From the most mundane guys to the truly delightful gals. From Richmond and NOVA to California and Arizona. I have many things which I had planned to use during social gatherings. Well, so much for them. Guess ill save em for special occasions. Hmm Its easy to decide who to cut ties with but I guess...
Can’t sleep ——- I haven’t been to church in 3wks and I feel that not going there is good for me. I haven’t been believing anyway and the little part of me which wanted to reconvert has gone. Not going to church saves me time. Plus I won’t see all those annoying-ass kids Religion is not for me. I used to believe and worship and shit but I became happy after I ceased to praise. Not sure if...
you are far too cute or whatever he said: Miss... →
princessj3ss: Remember when my tumblr used to be Miss Shim? My favorite math teacher used to call me that. Now, I have k-5th graders calling me Miss Shim, fighting over who gets to sit on my lap and who gets to show me his/her drawing first. It’s ridiculous, but I love it so much. It sincerely hurts to think… ====== I know exactly how you feel. - Father of two daughters.
Loneliness does not come from having no people around, but from being unable to...– Carl Jung
i expected this phase but not this soon. I’ve been fuckin ‘hateful’ for the past two days and really don’t ‘enjoy’ anything. no motivation and repelled from society. I compose myself well and talk just like any other day, but my internal thoughts n feelings are definitely different. objectively speakin, this is just another phase which i’ll overcome...
[[MORE]]I need to smile more I think i do almost everything else right but I just need to fuckin smile fucking smile fuck-ing-smi-le After I got my latest haircut, which makes me look incredibly criminal, I realized that only way to not repel people is to smile WHILE doing everything I’m already doing. Like… damn I look evil
Maybe I need to take a break at least once a day. Get away from the real world. Close my eyes and just spend time wondering around my figments. I randomly came across this thought just now when i was closing my eyes listening to Yiruma while learning French. It was that “wow” moment. I don’t know… maybe I’ll try this out for awhile… I used meditate...
Self destruction was enjoyable. Now back to my mundane life in rva. Im not going anywhere far until I go skydiving Im just crazy… making last second plans, going to maryland and shit, and never sleeping… Spending money as if I owned the world… Well, this was my final self-given break. 4th of july rest. Let me stay true to my words and fucking be productive now. Staring...
I’m too spontaneous of my own good I seriously gotta stay focused on improving myself instead of “having fun” It’s not like meeting people and shit will have a long-term effect on my life From now on, I WILL deny any invitations that interfere with MMA. Hangout until 5pm on weekdays and whenever on weekends. Except I prolly will go nova few more times And SKYDIVING. ...